Lacking.
Insufficient.
This entire concept of not being good enough is one that I've been battling for the past few weeks.
Now don't get me wrong, I know I'm created in God's image. I know he doesn't love anyone else more than he loves me and vise versa. I know that I am "Fearfully and wonderfully made" {Psalm 139:14}. But yet here I am feeling extremely insufficient...
I keep comparing myself, my personality, my looks, my friendships, my ideas and my faith to everyone else's and quite frankly, I'm driving myself crazy. I'm having a hard time getting a grip on this brutal feeling... And even though I looked up all the bible verses about my self-worth and asked God to help me I feel like nothing is sticking. No words have been able to counter these feelings and liberate me from them. I know all the facts about who I am in Christ, but none of that is making me feel any better. I desperately long for affirmation from others, yet when I receive those encouraging words it does nothing to make me feel better. It's confusing...
I'm sorry this post is the farthest thing from encouraging, but I started this blog with the intent of being real and open about my faith-walk...so here it is.
This is it.
I'm feeling down.
I'm feeling like I'm inadequate.
I'm feeling like I don't measure up.
I'm feeling insufficient.
Lord help me.
