Insecure. Now there's a word that people try to avoid when describing
themselves. We all like to pretend that we're secure in ourselves and
that we've got it all together, but the truth is that we're not even
close to secure in ourselves. We're far from it! I'm reading a book
called So Long Insecurity, You've Been a Bad Friend to Us by Beth Moore.
(you can read a quick excerpt
here
near the middle of the page) This book is SO GOOD! I've never really
seen myself as super insecure. I mean granted, I've never thought I was
particularly beautiful and sometimes I get self-conscious, but I'm not
the "super-clingy-emotional-wreck-that-insists-a-guy-can-complete-her"
type. I have insecurities, but I definitely know girls with way more
than me. So why read a book on it? Well to be honest I would have never
in a million years picked up this book. I got it though, because I
started reading it in a Bible study with girls my age at church. The
teacher, Debbie Griffith, (who taught me SO much during her time as my
Sunday School leader) thought that this book would be useful...and boy
was she right. I didn't finish this book with my Sunday School class,
but I did decide a few weeks ago that I'd read it again. I'm so glad
that I did! This book has made me realize that insecurity can present
itself in a number of ways that I didn't even know existed.
"Insecurity isn't just being sensitive to
things, it's a profound sense of self-doubt. A deep feeling of
uncertainty about our basic worth and place in the world. Insecurity is
associated with chronic self-consciousness, along with a chronic lack
of confidence in ourselves and anxiety about our relationships. An
insecure man or woman lives in constant fear of rejection and a deep
uncertainty about whether his or her own feelings and desires are
legitimate." -Beth Moore
Now you may read that and think
"Okay well that doesn't fully apply to me" but I can guarantee that it
does. If it applies to you in the least bit, then you struggle with
insecurity. I promise you that everyone on this earth has struggled with
insecurity at one point in their lives. You don't have to posses every
description or element of insecurity to qualify as insecure and in need
of healing.
I really wish that I could go deeper into what this book says, but I
can't do that without writing a 100 page blog entry. Honestly, this book
is so great, and I HIGHLY recommend it. It has seriously changed my
life. So go buy it! Or borrow it from someone you know! No matter how
you get it, I promise that you won't regret reading it from cover to
cover!
