Lacking.
Insufficient.
This entire concept of not being good enough is one that I've been battling for the past few weeks.
Now don't get me wrong, I know I'm created in God's image. I know he doesn't love anyone else more than he loves me and vise versa. I know that I am "Fearfully and wonderfully made" {Psalm 139:14}. But yet here I am feeling extremely insufficient...
I keep comparing myself, my personality, my looks, my friendships, my ideas and my faith to everyone else's and quite frankly, I'm driving myself crazy. I'm having a hard time getting a grip on this brutal feeling... And even though I looked up all the bible verses about my self-worth and asked God to help me I feel like nothing is sticking. No words have been able to counter these feelings and liberate me from them. I know all the facts about who I am in Christ, but none of that is making me feel any better. I desperately long for affirmation from others, yet when I receive those encouraging words it does nothing to make me feel better. It's confusing...
I'm sorry this post is the farthest thing from encouraging, but I started this blog with the intent of being real and open about my faith-walk...so here it is.
This is it.
I'm feeling down.
I'm feeling like I'm inadequate.
I'm feeling like I don't measure up.
I'm feeling insufficient.
Lord help me.
I'm sorry. I love you. You are beautiful and I'm so proud of who you are. You amaze me! That satan is trash-talking.
ReplyDeleteI just want to HUG you right now!!! The enemy is on a mission...to deceive you, to whisper lies to you, to "trash talk" you. He's at work 24/7! Our Father is on a GREATER mission.-- 2Corinth.12:9-10; "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.-- He has you in a season right now Paige and you will be made perfect through it! Boast, be glad, put on that armor, rest and wait this season out with joy and thankfulness to HIM for this time of sanctification!!! Loving you! -S
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